So it has been a really long time since I have posted something.  Lots has happened over the past year.  I lost a guy that I cared for with a passion that will never end.  I know I was not the greatest girlfriend in the world.  In fact I was far from even being close to that.  I hurt him in ways I swore I would never hurt someone.  What I don't understand is, why did I hurt the one I loved the most out of the entire world.  Why did I have to break a promise that I made to myself on this person that meant the world to me. Why could I not of just broke it on  someone else that didn't mean nearly as much as he did? 

I wish I could change so much of the things that I did wrong.  I wish that I still had you to hold me and laugh with me.  I loved every minute we spent together and every minute we talked on the phone.  Christmas and New Years Eve were horrible because last year I was with someone I cared about so much.  Five days before Christmas I didn't even go to school because of a special date.  People didn't understand what we had when we had it but after I lost you they gave me hell for losing you.  I wish we could go back to how it used to be I used to be so happy and didn't have to fake it.  But that is a dream long gone and you made your "choice of dreams". 

Anyways so I am a senior in high school this year.  It is not going as well as I had planned but isn't that how it always goes.  I have applied to ECU, Appalachian, and UNC-Charlotte.  At first I was leaning more towards ECU because of their medical programs.  But now I think I am wanting to go to UNC-Charlotte because Greenville (thats ECU is) doesn't really have anything down there. UNC-Charlotte on  the other hand has everything you can image to do. Plus they have just recently built a brand new medical building for their new medical classes. Which will be great if I do get in.  

So last weekend we got a whole group of people together to go to Pilot Mountain it was great! We ended up getting lost in the woods and had to run a mile back to the parking lot to get back on time. We still ended up getting back 10 minutes late, but the sunset was gorgeous.  This weekend we went to Hanging Rock.  I had never been there before.  It had to of been the best time I have had in forever.  We had a group of 11 people come.  We hiked 7 miles and ran the other 3.  We also did a good bit of rock climbing( Mitch and I) at the ledges.  I had more fun with Mitch than I have since we broke up. Which you can tell by my hands.  I have quite a few cuts on them from almost falling down a 30 foot drop. But it was still the greatest time ever.After that we came back to Clemmons and all went to Cozumel to eat.  Then everyone came back to my place and chilled.  Five of the people that went with us ended up staying the night. It was a great weekend. 

~Erin~